#pls let me know if u want me to change nay of this

[insidefantasy]

@hqlfbloods there was nothing that jess had learned to hate more than snowy days; maybe it was unfair, but they always reminded her of what had happened in blackwood pines. the doctors had told her it was all in her head, that the group had somehow gotten mixed around and suffered from group hysteria and mass hallucinations, but she knew that wasn't true. she knew what she had seen. lips pursed together as she saw mike across the way, feet shuffling underneath her as she moved closer to him, the familiar crunch of snow beneath her boots announcing her arrival and movement next to him.

"um, it's been a year since---" she cut herself off; there was no need to finish her sentence. she was sure he was just as aware of it as she was.

[tonyglowheart]

Trying to semi-organize my thoughts on what exactly I am wanting out of spn fic and hm let's see. If I remember this post in the future, I may update it as I think of/on things and use this for reference so I, also, don't forget lol

Okay so, wants/likes:

Cas prominent. He is my, as I believe the kpop kids say, bias, so he is kind of non-negotiable. Sorry I am just not interested in fics where he is not prominent

Destiel not required but a good plus. Slight preference for intricate courtship rituals over ones where they figure things out ridiculously easy, unless it is established relationship. If the revelation comes too quick and easy then I get taken out of the moment :')

Optional: Angels treating Cas like their baby brother :3 Cas can be somewhat put out by it or not. Actually maybe bonus if he IS, bc they are all angels of the lord and relative by rank and experience, And Yet [whoever] just cannot help but be *points* Baby

canonverse is plus. canon divergence is okay but idk how close to canon I'm looking for, if it's too close to an episode rewrite I may not be into that either

casefics are cool. If it's got that canon-typical vaguely racist sht then pls warn me going in 😔

Found family. Family don't end in blood!!! Spn may forget this but I never will!!!

Any exploration of the whole fucky destiel thematic dichotomies, the whole free will vs destiny shit, stuff like words of prophets are written on subway walls, like.. idk, something that is intricate-rituals-gay and also makes me think of the philosophy of thehuman condition

corollary: slow burns ig?? or like mutual pining? canon typical thinking they are not worthy or that it is something they cannot have? canon typical did not realize until later but even then they have their individual canon-typical reasons for not acting on it, until they do bc it's fic so they can get together for realsies?

trope: Cas and/or Destiel being parents. I read one recently where it was like single dad Cas (to Claire and Jack) and then Dean came (back) into his life recently and I rly liked it

AUs are fine but highly subject to mood so we'll see. I did read a Star Trek-y AU I liked

I'm down for a lot of various other kinds of plot tropes and stuff, tho I want stuff that's more character and plot and less, like, pwp or fuck or die or that kinda thing

trope: curses maybe? I've found a couple curse-focused fics which were interesting

trope: Hurt/Comfort of the Cas whump kind but not necessarily have to be just Cas. But like.. u know when Uriel is beating him up and he looks all bloody and beautiful, or when he flexes his sexy angel powers and transports the Winchesters to the past but then collapses bc he overtaxed himself, or when he had that blanket on when he was suffering from the attack dog spell.... yeah,,,

trope: Anything with like the Winchesters caring about and caring for Cas. I just rly like Cas being taken care of :') pls wrap him in a blanket and pat his shoulder brusque-softly in ur emotionally repressed way Dean

bottom line my emphasis tends to be more on character and plot. I can't do plot without character, the relationships - whether ship or gen - are important to my enjoyment of a fic. I can sit thru a lot if the characters/character dynamics are good and chewy lmao like u can rly sink ur teeth into it

Bonus features:

eldritch horror angels are a bonus. Give me unfathomable trueform angels, I feel like I don't see that enough

wings* but.... caveat I like my spn wings more metaphysical than literal unless they're literal for a point, but this isn't set in stone either. I'm just... slightly tired of the physicality of the wings I guess. Like it's not the physicality that's the issue, ig, but when it's not treated as metaphysical (as well)

wouldn't mind some good endverse fics to chew on altho that might also make me sad

Cas being cute, a la crazy!Cas (who is.... so soft.... his innocence.. *clutches chest*) or like when Cas and Dean went to talk to that police guy and Cas was like you tell them it's angels and demons warring and he will tell you what he knows, or when Cas was like I'm gonna become a hunter :3, or interrogating the cat, or this is his serious face, yes

Powerful af Cas?? I miss season 4/5 Cas, when he was powerful and self-assured and wasn't "mentally deficient puppy" as Metatron meanly put it Cas. I feel like we get less of that as the seasons go on... I miss Cas being powerful and exuding energy that I'm sure is what had ppl assigning him as top energy. Like yes flex ur sexy sexy angel powers pls. There's one ep where my notes just say "ANGEL SMITE ANGEL SMITE / HEAAALING." Season 6 Cas where he is more out of touch with humanity and more brusque was also intriguing even tho he was like that bc of extenuating circumstances. But him flexing his sexy angel powers sure was sexy

Do not wants :(

Endgame human!Cas. Sorry I like short-lived Cassidy am more into feathered Cas than human!Cas. endgame human!Cas just isn't a good solution/happy ending to me, I don't think Cas needs to change to be able to live happily, and also I like to chew on the like philosophical underpinnings of an immortal/mortal pairing if that does get called into question lol

Human AU* but like asterisk bc I will take human AU if the plot is compelling and/or the characterization still manages to capture that je nais se quoi of canonverse. If they are, like, middle age dads being domestic, as an example, tho, then I can probs do that, I just like.. have limited capacity for career-based AUs for the sake of it, if that makes sense... But character/character dynamics trumps all, like I said lmao.. I've sat thru scenarios/setups that lowkey dealt me psychic damage bc of the nature of the set dressing, bc I checked it out out of morbid curiosity but the way they did the characterization ended up working for me

A/B/O - I am not seeking A/B/O at the moment

Hurt no Comfort - it would make me too sad :(

fics that treat angels like literal physical feathered beings. Idk I just like... want the whole angel thing to be treated more metaphysically. They are multidimensional wavelengths of celestial intent in holy corporate/business attire visages but they are still very much multidimensional wavelengths of celestial intent the ballpark size of our Chrysler building. If the wings are treated too literally I find I start getting bored, ironically. This is ironic bc I'm a slut for wingfic. But with spn I find that a conventional kind of wingfic/angel conception where the wings are just limbs with maybe some slight handwaved dimension-shifting stowing is.. slightly passe for my tastes. Unless it's like a forced manifestation or sth. Just like.. get the metaphysics involved, tie it to angelic grace. Something. Make is racy. But not too racy, the whole wings-as-erogenous-zones thing I'm a bit over too, xenobiology to humans would just be biology to these beings, it doesn't make sense to me to be like "oh they have a tail and it's EXTRA sensitive," like are you suggesting your arm/armpit is an extra special species-typical erogenous zone too?

deaging unless it ties to some other kinda plotty deal somehow ig? Like... I got invested in this fandom for them as they are now I'm not too interesting in unseasoned nibling vers

this maybe goes with the human aus tho that's a slight asterisk but hard line no high school aus. pls I cannot take the psychic damage that would deal to me personal

I have no conclusion even tho I feel like I need one. here's wonderwall? ig I can stumble around looking for reclists and see if anything sticks out, trawling thru tags so far has been a mixed bag

Anyway haha lol, stand-up-style-tone I mean I'm not asking for a lot amirite. Just a nebulously specific set of intricate rituals wrapped around a plot and also found family or something, like you know, just a trifling

[junqkook]

NOT TO ASK FOR OPINIONS AGAIN BUT!!! i revamped (sort of) my masterlist, i think it looks more clean and aesthetic like this. if any of u take a peek at it, can u let me know it its a yay or a nay??

like is the format easy to navigate/read for you guys? bc if it’s confusing/hard pls lemme know bc i want the masterlist to be easy for you guys to look and click through and if its not i’ll change it akdhsjdj

[suburban-satan]

shit my friends say

So I made a list of all the wild shit my friends say, started in January 2018 and still going. It's one year old I guess? Well, enjoy what I have so far!

2018 -d a d d y w i s e -well there’s chains on the ground so that must mean this was a kinky sex dungeon -GORSH MICKEY NOT MY G SPOT -I can wait until I turn 40 so I can troll Japanese Girls on roblox -what if we all looked like mike wizowski but our heads were the same size as they are now -I wanna give pot to a bird -I take pills without water -daddies cummie wummies are the best cummie wummies -enjoy your nonexistent stomach acid -cum glaze -I hope you choke on MY meat -who hasn’t been on pornhub -(wipes tears away and starts belting despacito) -MY GAY IS BEING TRIGGERED -that omelet looks delouse -is semen a liquid or solid -iTs nOt aQuaNauTs yOu uNculTurEd fOoK -vaginas are scary -what is menstruation -you should change your name to pussy something -my gay has been activated -“have you ever owned a vibrator?” “No” “would you like to rent one” -“do you like glazed or cream filled” -wHaT dOeS cUm sOuNd LiKe -he is on too much fertilizer -sometimes cum is hot I know from experience -if you jerked off at the speed of sound would your dick be on fire -I don’t have a sonic fetish -can your dick ignite because of the heat of your cock -aren’t dicks like cannons -who the fuck draws a glowing peepee on a skeleton -honey Freddy freaker is dancing in the living room -does penis smell like garlic -she don’t swallow in this household -*downloading garrison nudes* -don’t you realize that tentacle porn is just using octopus arms as a dildo -frickle my nipples -Minecraft porn consists of the male genitalia replaced with a stick -OOPSIE WOOPSIE!! Uwu We make a fucky wucky!! A wittle fucko boingo! The code monkeys at our headquarters are working VEWY HAWD to fix this! -“I’m big for an asian” -cockilicous -“His anal glands need milking” -fready flipper -FREADY FAPPER -daddy better make me choke -does Freddy freaker have a mutated alien dick -sonic breaks the sound barrier by beating his meat -the sun looks like it’s gon vore you -bootyhole exploration -is megalovania sex music -i like to drink cock -cum is just genital snot -penis musk -Shid piz and farbt -Bull + shit = sis it don’t add up -Hey don’t tell me at least once in your life you haven’t thought about being gently caressed across the genitalia by the kraken -I swallow boba like i swallow cum -I wuv fungus kun, the way he waps a awond my tosie wosies so tight! He’s gibing me a huggie!!!! Fungus kun gibes my tosies a new color too!!!! Wat a good fungus kun make my doki doki go “ UAU” heeheehee -eating banana with the banana peel -orang juce -father I want cheddar -don’t you just look at someone and think about how long their neck is -breathing is just boneless vaping -get outta here juuling criminal -yall ever succ a dick for juul pods -unironically drawing miss piggy -“Jack don’t let go 😱🤭🤭, jack sweetie 😐👀 if you let go 🙊🙈 you’re weave 🙀🙀 gone 😇😘💅” -I've been watching spooky movies for 5 hour -omg it’s daddy sans undertaker!!! -bröther -I ate my sister -are you'd's't've kidding me? -oh youtube please don't show me the shrek movies rn -My brother is calling me out on the family group chat for eating a bowl of peanut butter -Hamilton is best girl -get outta here you fuckin loyalist -what doesn’t cum have -drink flex seal and you won’t have to worry about a marriage -I feel water. -“Superfood or supergross? Is Sperm good?” -coochie hands gucci bands -just imagine trying to cast a spell and then you get disturbed by a banjo -toto africa is sex music now and everytime they say rain it’s just cum -y'all ever burp in your mouth and exhale it through your nose like a vaper -how dare them make my green senpai an honorable member of society -If you didn’t search big boobs video on google at least once are you really a Gen Z kid????? -laugh pussies -i’m watching the history of japan on pornhub -we have the same name because we are secretly the same person -what if you eat your phone and it’s all in your tummy -why would you ever think i’m not serious all the time you silly dragon but we’re both (my name) so we can be the silly dragon together -why would you wash your face before you go to bed when your tears wash it off for you *wooshing noises* -I want to drive a bus because I like busses -my shoe broke -why does everyone talk about the drugs i’m eating -i’m going to break her because she’s talking about smoking cocaine and I don’t like drugs -(stage whisper) metal heads live among us but we don’t know because they look like normal people -oh bye mr music teacher -the pussy? designer. cucci, if you will. -DID I HEAR S A N S P O R N -"i'm about to nay nay on your dead fucking corpse" -alert alert the toes are coming -you got a fucking problem with my 𝐩𝐢𝐬𝐬 𝐝𝐢𝐛𝐬? -imagine using an oven for something designed for a microwave this post was made by the doesnt have much motivation gang -Please take my Minnesotan snow Wait that sounds like Minnesotan cocaine -when you funny scream -"dating the Bill of Rights for fun" is now exactly how I'm going to describe my hyperfixations -the penguin  from fruit loops is a twink (bitch its a toucan) -if white cheese exists is there black cheese -What’s rosum opossum -whale cum -dicko mode -(GETTIN SOME CHRISTMAS SPIRIT UP IN THAT PUSS) -pennies more like penis amirite -It’s Sunday don’t forget to squeeze cheese on the cat -the grinch is dr seuss’s fursona -everyone is gangster until the trees start speaking vietnamese -big chungus is my dad -“if the apocalypse happened what would you do” “eat bees” -I'm tired as fuck but I gotta wait until it's 4:20 to go to bed -mom: you need to be reasonable and wait two hours before having another brownie me, stuffing my mouth full of brownie: br o w n y s -This honey in whole foods is in fucking comic sans -it's more likely that I'll guess someone is gay before I remember the existence of women -im gonna say it again for the people in the back:

i eat bees -Thanos penis, it's actually called a thenis -yort -uwu its the mowst thorstiewst time of the yeaw uwu -It is I Teh gromc -The gronk is here to say eat all the dish soap in the house -the grinch but he's wearing crocs the entire time -answer my question or else i will establish sans porn -You make him doki doki uwaaaaa!!!! -birdbox but all the bird sounds are replaced by cardi b noises -THE GROMPK IS TOO POWERFUL -consume ocean sauce -square up in judge judys court -half consumes ocean sauce -ice juce -frick stick -you guys wanna read undertale fanfiction     -2019- -it might be 2019 but thats not gonna stop me from terrorizing my family's groupchat -(pineapple voice) first date idea: digest eachother -Wait dennys will arrest you for doing illegal things?? -pls purify me -my toes are very succulent today -two succs having flex two succs having sex my muscles my muscles involuntarily checks -f u r r y , N a s h . -Perfect for all occasions! Spill something on your nice shirt, give a messy blowjob, and sphagetti!!! -Do you want cum on your nice shirt??? -it would be nice if i had cum on my shirt -cocc succ machine -I KNOW TONGUE JUTSU -I feel like i’m in a meat prison -hi you obese elephant -plant porn is just flowey porn -We all love the out of the box 4am messages we get -YOU LIKE SNAS PEEPEE

[raspberryparker]

can u pls explain how the whole a/b/o thing works and what is knotting and rut and heat i’m so confused but i really wanna read ur fic so pls

hi hi! thanks for showing interest in my fic! i’m gonna use this ask to answer a a couple questions regarding the a/b/o and omegaverse tropes.��

i have a post explaining knotting here and rut here. i’ll use this to explain heat, but if you have any other questions, check out my ‘#a/b/o 101′ tag!!!!

okay so let’s discuss: heats!

a heat is the time when an omega is more fertile and ready to mate. it happens in mammals as well, and the most commonly known example would be dogs and wolves. that means they are in oestrus and the most receptive to conception. 

in the omegaverse, though this changes depending on the writer, it happens less frequently than for humans. omega don’t ovulate every month because a heat a month would be absolutely horrible, so it’s generally 3 or 4 times a year (every 3 or 4 months). during omega heats which last up to two weeks they experience heavy arousal and desire to mate and breed, stomach cramps, a stronger scent to attract potential mates, and they lose any and all desire to do anything but sleep and fuck to put it crudely. 

for an omega without a mate, it’s an awfully painful experience. they are at risk of hurting themselves and if the heat is especially bad then they run the risk of actually going insane the longer they are unbonded. that’s why people generally start looking for mates around junior or senior year of high school. that’s why in my fic they’re all looking for people. it’s for more a of a self preservation thing than anything else. society in the omegaverse is very relationship heavy. i might go into more detail in a future fic but i’m not sure yet.

but yes. heats are really shitty to go through alone. usually the only thing that can calm an omega down during their heat is an alpha. the alpha spends the whole week having sex with their omega and trying to breed them. usually when and only when an omega is knotted, they become clear headed and sated for a while until the next wave of their heat strikes again. this is because they are more likely to conceive with their alpha’s knot because it keeps the sperm in and the whole point of a heat is to conceive.

for couples who don’t want to conceive yet, the only contraceptive that works is the pill because alphas cannot stand condoms. and usually they are too far gone to even bother putting one on.

i think i’ve covered everything! let me know if you have nay more questions!

[kunalkarankapoor]

Viewers feedback on Kunal Karan Kapoor’s character as Angad Yadav.

Played very well indeed....! i love him mean .....lol whereas if u've seen angad's previous shows...u wld never in ur faintest dream think of him in this role...i am bowled over.. rochella_22 

i love to Hate Angad thats why .. enjoyed his and krishna's act a lot !!! these two share a marvellous chemistry together .... all of their encounters are superb .. ImmaculateDream

I dont think that everyone is bashing the actor or character...they just expressing their feelings abt this character...which i must say that the actor is playing very well to get this kind of negativity...which is remarkable...the guy is doing his job well....and how !!!! rochella_22 

I loved it wen Angad said tum toh dhare ke dhare reh gaye aur sara mazaa woh kutte ka bachcha leh gaya.... (scene with Pragya and dog) Auditi

What added spice in the end was Angad's dialogue when he asked his mate "Tumare bhaiya soh gaye ka?" (scene with Pragya and dog) Unnati

Superb mindblowing acting by arhaan n kunal karan kapoor WOW (restaurant scene) ArhainAshiah

Today angad wa d way he came to nitin langur LOL aaaker jaise aankh maaareyit was a cutee n sweett scenee..angad wa is very funnnyy yet a goon n he was standing leaning langur nitin's car n his boyss r beating langur nitinkaa styleee hai bayyy ArhainAshiah

wonderful acting by Kunal, and yes that wink made an impact! Kunal is such a brilliant actor dkmystery

yaaaaa, even i loved his wink ;) .... and that wink means beta buhat parne wali hain tumhain yasmeeneee

angad is vry funny...drata b hai or wink b krta hai... bt he is cute yaar.... Shivani_4u

Kunal's character changed a lot...last time I saw him was in Remix....n there he was totally a innocent n in this he is a goon.....wow....he changed a lot....but still he got some gud acting skills.... frndship_trust

eally .....thats cute i like him in lrl...n cant believe that he is the same guy. kunal is a gr8 actor Sweet_sona

i also lik him in LRL...bt nw he is totally changed Yudi se Mr. Yadav bann gya hai. Superb actor... Shivani_4u

I enjoy watching him on screen.. He's so convincing as a ghunda.. Mahabhootini

oh god! poor boy! par he plays his character vry well ... though da guy is pretty gud lukin  ... he manages to play da character of villain vry well n forces all of us to HATE HIM! lol LuvKriya

angad is super bad ! love to hate him..... rochella_22

The guy who plays Angad...he is a brilliant actor. Anjalg

totally agree that he is just too bad and creepy, but he actually makes this show more exciting, Limits

he is quiet gud looking and is doing a great job playing a gunda cloud123

me too......his character is horrible but kunal is 😍 i love u kunal!!!! serialmaniac 

hez cute. i lovd him in LEft right left.... Almas

Spin_off show with Angad

Ok i love how everyone is so involved with getting a lady love for Angad, maybe there should be a spin off show with Angad as the lead.........I've already thought of the story.........so we all know that Angad has a sick mother in gawo (village)...maa maati nahi aur jeeti nahi hai

so the story is that the sick mum asks Angad to marry and chooses a bride for him and he marries her even though we know he has no interest in that and that's where the story starts??????????Now it won't be like the story of Pratigya where she fights for the rights of women in the Singh household......but i guess the story depends on who he would marryso which lucky girl should it be and what kind of life would they have??????

Rolli......she is strong and brave and will try to change him....make him more like Adarsh, get a job, stop hanging around with Lucky and Jugnu (poor guys) and maybe quit paan

Komal..........this sherni will try to be the male dominant in the relationship would be hilarious to watch, consant nonsense arguments, and threats that Krishna will beat him up

Arushi...........maybe she's too cute and sweet personality for him, she'll be too scared????

That's all the female characters.....maybe someone else???

Anyway what do you guys think?????????

Angad Wah Wah And Angad is back he made me laugh when he was talking about his sick mother Amma na jeeti hai na marti hai Xxxjrae

Since Rohli now looks set to be parted from Adarsh, I'd REALLY like her to be paired with Angad  They'd work so well! She's civlized and gentle but she still speaks up for herself so she'd be perfect for Angad. Kunal's a real asset to the show since he's one of the best actors on it so they shouldn't just let him go on being the obstacle in the Kriya relationship and then just leave him by the roadside.... shi_no_tenshi

pehle b kaha tha aur abhi b keh rahi hun .... ANGAD N KOMAL .... will wrk wonders .... un logon ki khatti meethi kahani will be a treat to watch wd loads of masti + masala +khoob saara daraana dhamkaana - romance .... LuvKriya

kunal is so handsome and cute and arushi is cute too....they perfectly matched....but damn he is a gunda....all my dreams shattered in pieces.  i hope they make angad good and arushi-angad track.....i am tired of his schemeing....he is a hot schemer Mages

oh u brought back long lost memories. i was an ardent fan of lrl. after a gap of 4 yrs i am now hooked on to pratigya. i remember him dressed as a girl in lrl.  angad aka kunal kapoor played the role of an army cadet. he does not get a date so goes to the army ball dressed as madonna the hot girl along with his roommate. kunal acts damn well . even his tragic scenes make the audience cry. his role was just the opposite of angadwa. he was cadet yadhuvansh but the cool dude hated his name so cut it to yudi. i loved his role and i love his new desi look in pratigya too. he is an extremely versatile actor and can give any lead pair a run for their money.  he may appear only at times in pratigya but angadwa ki wajah se hi pratigya aage badh rahi hain

hats off to kunal for his choice of roles. ofcourse madonna ko toh mein kabhi nahin bhool sakthi. i still watch those epis in my computer anujkpjk

kunal karan is undoubtedly very very shweeettt as a person hes a really nyc n shweet guy hes rockin as angadwa n i lubbb anagdwa n krishu wen dere aamney saaamney tooo hotttt n dey sizzle d screen tgdr..i actually miss angadwa wen hes not in d drama:( ArhainAshish

i mean the way he speaks and acts. what did you think? LOL seriosly if it weren't for him this SHOW would anther sas bhu shit! LOVE_DMG

yaa angad is the villan of the show and he is a very good actor too so i also don't want him to die CHHAYA007

i like kunal but angad iam not a huge fun of his khusboo16

I love kunal's acting... i mean he has to be a good actor to make us all want to collectively bash him up. kudos to his acting. he does not need to scream or overact. just those eyes slant and u want to throw something at him. Ek.Romantique

ohm y goddddddddddddd!!!! terrible yaar!! i personally HATE angad but i wud never wnt him to die coz he's da only one whcih helps maintain balance happiness n sorrow in pratigya's life , i LOVE kunalll nd wud never wnt this to happennn luv_kriya

i will miss kunal karan kapoor,no doubt.... i just LUBBED his acting....and i just LUBBED to hate angad.... today a trmendously good actor took farewell frm the serial..... now whu is gonna add to the mirchi masala of the serial? i will truly miss paanwala..... i like kunal immensely.....he is my "purana pyaar”  kasturika_kashu

He was a wonderful actor Binny

I'm sure that either Kunal has taken up a new show or again going for a vacation... but he has to come back! I'll also miss him dkmystery

Im soo goin 2 miss kunal & angad he's my fave actor/character in pratigya hope he has a gud vacation DEENCH

yeah i thought he was a good actr aswell, he was very funny in some scenes and evn though he was bad, i diddnt hate him, mayb jst a bt annoyng at tmes! i wsh he cums in a show and hes a positive character, tht would be very good Mazzy101

Honestly, this show not just belong to kriya, but also to angad. Prabhkallu

yeah, n I'm not happy... I'll miss him yar paan khaye angadwa hamar dkmystery

i just hate thttttttttttttt.. i want angad back........he always put masala in the show n i just love tht.................Neha_angel

no no no ANOTHER ANGAD.....i want THIS angad back...........he is the best villain....and without villain u have no masqala....take two three mnths watevr possible bt bring angu back.... kasturika_kashu

3-4 months without my kunal ..............i cant live serialmaniac

ahahaha hmmm...kunal is a shweet guyy..hes a total gal wen it cums to shoppin awww ahaha cuteee..n awww he spends n dosent really cares abt investing..guddd hes young he shud travel n do shopping n enjoyy lyfff...awww he worked at a call centre hmm..kunal is reallly shweett anagdwa ko pataa nai kia hai lol..y is he after my krishu n his happiness:((but i dunno y i miss angadwa wen hes not in d drama m lukin forward lets c wht krishu does with him this tym;)ahahahahan kunal is a gr8 photographer as well..he has put on reallly beautiful pics on fb..d scenry n d places where he goes r beautiful..travel kertey kertey bhul jataa hai k anagdwa ki shootin b kerney hai:(i lyk him with krishu dey rockk tgdr although dey're fighting most of d tym ahaha:p ArhainAshish

angad's scenes was much better den dis curent boring track! Shashi2011

A veritable Iago as some people described him. The actor definitely played the role to the hilt. He was really quite outstanding I thought and entertaining as well. Nayak29

the actor is great... TonsOfWishes

pls add me too , he is a brilliant actor Binny

hey i am also a big fan of kunal i really like his acting from the serial left right and he also do great work in pratigya serial he is a very gud actor chhaya007

I miss Angad and his typical bihari dialgoues...I simply love the way..he used to say...aiyee professor. I loved his dialogues..made me laugh..typical bihari style..he pulled off his role very well,I must say...his chamches ran away..lol chits1

he is a superb actor. whenever his scenes come up there is no boriyat, he makes u sit up and watch. u are always waiting and wondering "ab kaa karega be".

jitni galiyan angad khata hai ees forum pe usi say pata chalta hai what a superb actor he is. no screaming, no special ticks, nothing... just his "tirchi" aankh ka slanted look and u r worried what he is going to do now. Keep it up Kunal.!! Ek.Romantique

Just now..i am chatting with Kunal bhaiya and he says that Angad and his friends will be back in August...for TRP....jisse khush hona hain hoo..jisse dhukhi hona ho.....thanks to him...aur kuch pataa chala toh likhoongi........ Anaya_kgp

He says Krishna will die next week....OMG.... Anaya_kgp

arey....abhi woh keh rahe hain..it was a joke...mazak tha..my heart came out..yeh kaisa mazak tha?? Anaya_kgp

Meri pyaari behen...vo aapke jiju hai bhaiyya nahi!!! Aur meri izzazat ke bina himmat kese hui unse chat karne kii (i'm very possesive like krishna about my kunal serialmaniac

he is laughing...main sunke paglaa gayi... Anaya_kgp

Good second lead roles.

Now a days show writers are giving equal importance to other lead roles to make an impact amongst the audiences by their acting, though it may be a cameo but still their role is remembered. We take a look at few such roles.

Kunal Karan Kapoor in Pratigya He popularly known as Yudi of Left Right Left show, but now is more famous as Angad, the bad guy of Pratigya show. Whenever he is in the scene he takes all the credit by his acting style especially his style of having betel leaves.

LINK: http://www.indya.com/gallery/indyagallery.aspx?p=Good-second-lead-roles&aid=1518

I'm so proud of Angad, i really miss him on the show, i really like his character and his acting!!!Glad he's getting credit and recognition. Xxxjrae 

yes mima beta!!!!!! Kunal is a superb actor. I lik hiz acting....bt where is he?? Ye Instalment me kyu aata hai.. Shivani_4u

tht tatto he has on his arm..my cousin has the same tatttoo must have hurt him like hell..my cousin was hurt like hell..n i love angad's (kunal's) hair..nice..wht shampoo does he use. daisyluv

aw...he is looking so cute...he deserve better character yaar... shumi

i miss angad/kunal soo much hope he cames back. DEEENCH

But must say both Kunal & Arhaan are doing a good job ..their characters add spice to the show. Unnati

Angad...our new competition (NBT airing same time slot as Pratigya)

y competition Poojie????since he was also part of MKAP and was a deserving artist,who actually got acting skills he surely deserves good wishes.All the best 2 him. KP Marina

and he is a brilliant actor as well.. Poojamenon

Good luck to him as he is a talented actor..:) Sheena

angad used to rock in MKAP! that time MKAP was the BEST!! bugsbunny

All d best 2 Kunal coz he's a fab actor Eden_luvskriya

I dont know how many of u are aware but our 'new guy' is called SUKHI in the show...his real name is KUNAL KARAN KAPOOR....he is a nice actor and i loved him in LEFT RIGHT LEFT as YUDI...he was there in REMIX too as karan wahi's best friend(dont remember his name)...I LOVE HIS STYLE and its a treat to watch him in maayka...i think he brings freshness to the show...there is this great scene of his from left right left where he is tryin to commit suicide...i tried to post it here but apparently i cant...its there under yudi suicide attempt...do watch it if u guys can...its awesome! rochella_22 

i love SUKHI...very captivating... u gotta see the scene where SUKHI gets in the tempo lookin at tina had me all..."awww....he's lookin so cuteeeeeeeee".... i still cant take my eyes off the screen....and u r rite....both of them do look really cute...i dare say...the sub-plot is better than the main track...lol rochella_22

their chemistry really adds 2 whats going on around them it makes it so interesting and sweet ILUVPREM

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Tagged by the magnificent @itana-007, Thank you so much for tagging me :D. I apologise for not doing these sooner tumblr isnt giving me damn notifications =P.

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag however many people you want!

THE LAST: 1. Drink: Water 2. Phone call: IRL friend Ash 3. Text message: @haikyuukazoo 4. Song you listened to: It Has Begun ~ Starset 5. Time you cried: 2 hrs ago, lmao.

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: Nup 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: Nope 8. Been cheated on: Nah 9. Lost someone special: Definitely 10. Been depressed: Absolutely 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Not legally allowed to drink =P

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLOURS: 12-14: Today i’m feeling Turquoise, Brown and Olive

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: Online, Yeah. IRL, lmao who’d wanna talk to this nerd. 16. Fallen out of love: Not sure i truely know what love is. 17. Laughed until you cried: Of course! 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Negative 19. Met someone who changed you: I’ve met ppl who i never want to be like so yeah? i guess? 20. Found out who your friends are: Uh.. i always knew who they were... they are them, weird and unique as they are. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: HA let’s just stop this at I’ve never kissed someone before.

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of em. 23. Do you have any pets: YA :D 24. Do you want to change your name: Never 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: Celebrated it in Japan with my friends. 26. What time did you wake up: 4:05am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Probably reading fanfiction 28. Name something you can’t wait for: The sweet release of death? uhh well my friends just organised another hang out so probably that cause i haven’t seen them in what feels like a month. 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: 3 mins ago 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My fitness level. 31. What are you listening right now: My dad teaching my baby brother about pumpkins. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: XD Yeah, he’s in my Chem and Physics and has the same will to live as I do. Man what a meme. 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Dad 34. Most visited Website: Tumblr, Youtube and Netflix cause i have no life...

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME (Lmaooo) 35. Mole/s: Everywhere, like there are some old friends and some im like ... where u always there?? 36. Mark/s: I mean i always accidentally draw on myself cause im reckless. 37. Childhood dream: I wanted to be a singer which was crushed by my dad telling me i’m not good enough, then i wanted to be a scientist. 38. Hair Colour: Black 39. Long or short hair: Short, I love short hair, though i have no idea what suits me. like i look bad in both but in short I look a little less bad? 40. Do you have a crush on someone: I’m confused... idk if it’s a crush, or if it’s the desire for platonic friendship. (most likely the latter cause im about as romantic as a rag covered in moulded melted cheese) (KITA WTF) 41. What do you like about yourself: Uh.............. 42. Piercings: Nay 43. Bloodtype: O Positive, (at least some aspect of my life is positive) (kita no) 44. Nickname: Niki or Kita 45. Relationship status: Single 46. Zodiac: Capricor 47. Pronouns: Don’t really care for pronouns, call me whatever as long as it isnt mean, then i’ll fite u (pls no) 48. Favorite TV Show: OF ALL TIME, FOREVER WILL BE A:TLA 49. Tattoos: I would love some, but im not sure what of. 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: Nada 52. Hair dyed in different colour:  Nein, i’d love like subtle steaks or surprise rainbow fish under but yeah, i like my hair colour. 53. Sport: I was gonna put *runs away* but i know i can’t even do that. 55. Vacation: Take me away, idec where, Surprise trips are great. 56. Pair of trainers: What does this even mean?

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: A *uncrumples packet* Carman’s Original, Fruit Free, Museli bar. 58. Drinking: Nothin rn. 59. I’m about to: Probably binge youtube OR start my Chem homework. 61. Waiting for: a reason to live Something to genuinely smile or laugh at. 62. Want: mental stability?  63. Get married: At this moment in time don’t think so. 64. Career: I have no clue, I wanted to go into medicine but dad said there’s no point cause i probs wont get in and it’s really hard (Thanks dad). at the moment i want any career that allows me to directly help other people (which was why i wanted to go into medicine and help those with terminal illnesses)

WHICH IS BETTER 65. Hugs or kisses: SHORT STORY TIME! So my family isnt a very... intimate? emotional? family. We do hug each other but it’s more like pats on the back, we do not kiss each other and don’t say “I love you” very often and that’s fine, cause it means that when we do, it carries a lot more with it. Now I FEAR kisses and saying the “L” word. Like i don’t like the “L” word in an intimate sense, it scares me. Luv is fine, but “LOVE” has too much emotional meaning behind it for it to be said just willy nilly, for me personally. ANYWAY STORY TIME KINDA? I GUESS OVER. (i choose hugs.) 66. Lips or eyes: Eyes, honestly the amount of times i want to just admire anyone’s eyes is uncountable. The unique patterns and shade and lighting UH. 67. Shorter or taller: Taller.  68. Older or younger: Honestly the elderly and the youth scare me. I’m okay with anyone as long as they accept me. 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Nice person. 71. Sensitive or loud: Both. If you wanna be loud by thor be as loud as you want (as long as you respect that we all have a right to quiet), if u wanna talk bout ur feelings sure i’ll listen, can’t help but i’ll listen. 72. Hook up or relationship: What is a hook up? Relationship i guess? 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a Stranger: Again, No to the kisses. 75. Drank hard liquor: Again, Not legally allowed too. 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: Don’t wear em. 77. Turned someone down: HA who’d want me 78. Sex on the first date: Let’s just stop at “first date”  79. Broken someone’s heart: Lmao i hope not, don’t waste ur time on my dumb ass. I’m too oblivious for that. 80. Had your heart broken: Idk if it counts as a “heart break” if ur like, 13. Like chill child your still young. 81. Been arrested: Nah 82. Cried when someone died: Of Course. 83. Fallen for a friend: Tripped, yes. in love? Don’t think so.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: HELL NO :D 85. Miracles: pffft, nah 86. Love at first sight: Absolutely not. 87. Santa Claus: A creepy old white fat man that gives me presents? (sugar daddy) 88. Kiss on the first date: Again, Kisses are a No-No unless i share a very strong emotional bond with you (even then u’d be lucky)

OTHER: 90. Current best friend name: probs this scrub @beeboplox 91. Eyecolor: Brown.  92. Favorite movie: The incredibles?

TAGGING TIME: The usual @whovian1077, @firthermore​, @haikyuukazoo​, and anyone who wants to do this.

100% optional! If ya would like me to stop tagging you gimme a shout and i’ll stop (also goes if you’d like to be tagged). Thanks y’all for being awesome. =PP

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Brother Samson And Sister Debbie’s Story continues

Sista Debbie writes, "And I slept in his room for the first time". (June 16, 2013)

On the day some graduates who are jobless wrote an employment exams @ a nearby town did I went 2 my love's shop. I prepared his delicious meal, which is pounded yam with melon soup...He did not like engine grinded pounded yam, he says dat d so called engine pounded yam is not usually soft n well articulated 2geda like d 1 pounded in a morter by pestle...such engine grinded boiled yams do have lattices n inter-callaces, spaces, d atoms and ions are scattered, dey do not form a good compound, its cohesive forces are not strong...it does not form a good ball, good morsel,, when rolled 2geda by d fingers b4 dipping into d soup b4 going into d mouth 4 onward swallowing...it is essentially not a good representation of pounded yam, although it is fair, manageable, but nay good, if some1 has ever tasted such b4...so my love said...

Having felt his pulse on this, and having understand my one and only one...I decide 2 pound d yam...it was smooth, soft, succulent like a baby's ear-lobe...Before I did dis, I have grinded pepper, tomatoes, onions, locust bean, I added cray-fish and melon, all these were grinded on d ancient mortar...People, expert women in cooking, say dat pepper grinded using ancient stone mortar is usually sweeter than d ones grinded by engines, d new technological inventions...Afta I was thru with dis, I have gotten other additives like vegetables, dry fishes, lungs and liver of animals which I have cut 2 small sizes,...all these r going into d grinded melon n others...On d 2nd kerosine stove, I boiled d meat, cow meat, whose nearly dried boiled water shall also serve as other additives to d melon 2 be cooked...Afta dis I fried d meats and a little pepper which i shall add on d melon-vegetable soup afta it is done...At d expiration of d soup did I peeled d Yams and put it on fire...Washed d mortar

And psetle...getting set for the pounding...Afta all said n done, I was thru with all...Afta I took my bathe, arranged d foods in order...off 2 my love's office cum shop...As usual, he was busy in his office, preparing some notes, I guess he shall be ministering 2moro @ d church or perhaps he had an impromptu message 2 deliver @ a place, because he looked subsumed in his thoughts and writings, but I am yet 2 be fully briefed of what he is busy doing in his office...I entered, genuflected few millimeters off d door frame as I stepped into his office...dropped my bag on a settee...and said, "ẹ ku isẹ oni o", I did not wait 4 his response as I walked to his side hugged him and pecked him on d right cheek...took about 3 steps back and dropped d container containing his cooked food @ a corner behind where he sits...""O se o" , but u are a bit late", he replied. "Ẹ má mà dami lohun", I said, as I was dropping d bag. "What is it that has kept u back all dis while?" He asked, as he continue

Writing. "Se ẹ nisẹ fun mi ni?" I asked. "Oh yes. Oh no..." He paused 4m what he was writing, I guess he has muddled up some points...he then speaks loud, ostentatiously not to me, that, ""...As he journied on, he stopped...He will also stop to answer you today and now in Jesus name..." I said "amen". He was quickly writing this down 4m dis I discern dat I am disturbing d flow of "stuffs" which I guess is spiritual, then, I excused myself 4m his office as I said, "My love, am so, so sorry to disturb you, let me go and join the sales staff @ sales department, and when u are thru u can call 4 me". "Oh, thank you dearie...I am sorry 4 the inability 2 attend 2 u now,...I shall soon be through with this section and I will come over and meet you there", he said, dropping the ball-pen, resting his back on the chair and looking directly @ me..."It is no problem "mai" lord, take good care of yourself and do the right justices to the outlined points, as we also continue with the other aspects,

Division of labour "sé", (he nodded his head in affirmative) selling the stocked goods", I said... ""Ẹ se o", I should be thru soon..." he said, half of this last statement I didnt hear because I have already opened d office door, so d noise of the office door as it moves on the hinge dat fastened it to d oda part of d structure shielded his words 4m my hearing...I also gave d sales department staffs their foods, I wrapped their pounded yams in a leaf, "ewe iran" as it is called in our Island and I put their soup in "take-aways", a combustible bowl like structure. The sales staffs are doing justices 2 d food one afta anoda...They did not eat d food @ once dis is done so dat there shall be free staffs to attend 2 customers...Afta a while, every1 has eaten his/her portion...we continued selling things @ d sales department/outlet, but when there is no customer, we resort 2 gisting...we are also taking note of the goods that are out-of-stock, those that are few copies left...so dat "mai"

Lord be intimated of what is left in stock and he wil place orders for more copies as soon as soon can be...I got to d shop @ 14:30 hours the Island's time, but as @ 15:30 hours "mai" love is yet 2 come out...he though sends messages 2 update me through facebook...@ 16:15 hours, he finally came out of his office... ""Se ko si "problems" pẹlu awọn "customers" o"", he said as he walked 2 where I am, placed his 2 palms on my shoulders, becuase I was facing outside while I back d office, as I felt his palms on my shoulders, so I felt his lips touching my head, because my hair was plaited and I had no scarf or cap on...he kissed my head like the Europeans..."I think i love this", I said 2 mysef...""Ko si" problems sire", a staff replied.... ""Agbara Ọlọrun ka awọn to wa "sire", another staff added...""To ò, ẹ ku isẹ o", he said...After he has answered them, he spoke 2 me in a hushed tone, ""Ẹ ku ijoko, se o binu pupọ?" he asked....I shook my head for negativity, ""rara o". Why would I be

Angry? With whom shal I be annoyed? How shall I be miffed?" I asked....He has now put his hands by d arms of d chair, his right hand on d right arm of d chair while his left rests on d left arm of d chair, as he rested his chin on my right shoulder...Just then, one of d staffs looked back and said, ""ỌGA",I like this posture "o"" the other sales staffs looked back and they started commenting, as if we have posted a comment on d facebook, "me too sire", anoda staff said, ""Eleyi ko" bad "o"", anoda staff yet added...."Let us take the picture sire" a staff said and they all chorused thus, "Yes. Yes. Yes. The picture, it shal be good for your profile..." They did not even wait 4 a reply 4m any of us as someone out of them took my fone 4m d table and took the picture...afterwards he said, ""Ọga, look at it, isnt it lovely?" Turning 2 me, he said "abi anti? Isnt it innovative and enthralling?" My love took it 4m him looking @ it he said, ""Ẹyin lẹ mọ̀, se bi ẹ ti yà á tan"".

"No sire. Not a matter of "sebi a ti yà á tan", to be frank and sincere sire, pass comment", a staff said. "Hum... Well...I think so", my love said.... ""Mo mọ tọga bẹ́ẹ̀", I think "nã ni" always", anoda staff enthused. "Ok. What do u want me 2 say, "ẹyin ọmọ yi"", my love said. Anoda staff replied, "With all sense of humility and respect sire", bowing his head, "we expect a nay or yea answer 4m you sire. Isnt this picture respledent, lovely, gorgeous, inspiring, enthralling, tantalizing,..." My love interjected, "I think you have made millions today...or what really happened? Because all of you are joyous", he asked. "We bless God 4 today's sales "ná ọga", as you all know no dull moment with us here, because the joy of the Lord is our strong room (someone among them said "Yes o") but that apart sire, isnt this pics inviting?" the staff concludes. Another staff said, "This pics shall hit the enemies @ a dangerous place sire, when they see it on air". ""O dara nã", it is fine. "Kilẹ fẹ

Gbà nidi ọrọ yi?" My love said.... They all clapped their hands, as if they have re-hearsed it before they chorused, ""Oluwa seun". That is what we wanna hear", a staff added "1st time in history "ọga" conceeds d discussion 2 us". My love pulled me up 4m where I am sitting down as if glued by something 2 d seat watching the master-servant season movie part 8..."Please let us go into d office, because "awọn ọmọ yi ko ni jẹ ka gbadun ọrọ wa nibiyi o"" he said as he helped me 2 my feet with his right hands around my scapular. As I was standing up, someone said, "Please "ọga" on behalf of all", we are both standing now, with his hand yet around me, listening to d staff, "I want u 2 help us thank anti 4 d delicious meal she gave us today o, "mo wi ire tabi ngo wi ire"?" He enthused as he faced his colleagues waiting 4 an answer. They all chorused the answer, "O wi ire". "Ọga", my love said, ""oun na ti ngbọ bayẹn", pls let us go jare"", he added. ""A kì í dupẹ ara ẹni", I said as he allows

As he allows me 2 walk ahead, placing his palms on my shoulders like Island's children while playing games in d moonlight... In his office he told me how pastor phoned him dat he shd prepare 4 message 2moro bc God laid d burden on his heart...He said he has texted me 2 Intimate me dat blessed devpt, but I have not received d text till i got 2 him, all these network problems... Afta he ate his food...He gave me money 2 go n buy oda fudstuffs n prepare soup 4 him...dis also shal afford him d opportunity 2 complete d msg he was preparing... Afta I was tru @ d market, I got 2 his room in a "face me I slap you" house in d Island around 18:45 hours...prepared d foods n soups...He got home around 20:50 hours...2 minutes afta rain began...A heavy rain...it rained 4 an hour...d streets are deserted...I wasnt too sure of how intact d adjoining bridge dat was constructed by communal efforts dat linked my street with d main street shall be, bc well b4 dis heavy rain, erosion has been washing away d edges...so we, my one and only and I, concluded dat I shd sleep in his house dat nyt...

Afta eating, bathing, changing and prayers, I lay on bed...so furtunate 4 us dat d electricity providers of d Island didnt switch off d electricity 2 d island dat day...it was a rare occasion in d island, having electricity during rain...we bless God 4 dat... As I laid on d bed, he returned 2 his writing desk, "wont u rest a while?" I asked. "I shall do but not now", he said. "This man must be a "work-a-holic", what some psychologists called type-A personality", I thousght... As a solemn christian worship song was coming out of his DVD player...I was following d wordings and the rhythm, I did not know when I slept off... @ d midnight, 00:15 hours, I opened my eyes only 2 find him sleeping on a mat on d floor..., "this man "shá", wont he have body ache 2moro? Sleeping on mat? I cannot remember when last I slept on mat...as I think of dis, I fell asleep again...by 04:00 hours, I come out of sleep again...he was awake praying..."Huh, my one and only, broda Samson! Is dis his life-cycle?" I questioned myself. I also attempted praying some silent prayers as he was doing...but I couldnt sustain it bc my eyes were heavy with sleep thus I fell asleep again...around 05:30 hours, I felt his hand gently tapping me..."wake up and let us pray", he said....

DIFFICULT WORDS MEANINGS

*Sista Debbie writes, "And I slept in his room for the first time". (June 16, 2013)

1 (MEANS one

"ẹ ku isẹ oni o", (translation how is work oh)

O se o" , (translation thank you oh)

 "Ẹ má mà dami lohun", (translation don’t mind me)

"Se ẹ nisẹ fun mi ni?" (translation do you have work for me? Or do you want to send me an errand?)

"sé", (translation is it) (he nodded his head in affirmative)

""Ẹ se o", (translation Thank you oh)

"ewe iran" (translation is a characteristic big leaf in our land that is being used to wrap things. Hawkers in the olden days and presently in the rural areas use it to wrap things for their buyers

""Se ko si "problems" pẹlu awọn "customers" o"", (translation I hope there is no problems with the customers oh)

...""Ko si" problems sire", (translation there is no problems sir)

""Agbara Ọlọrun ka awọn to wa "sire", (translation The power of God is able for all who come (it is a way of saying with the help of God we have been able to attend to all the customers that come here today, that is the way the Yorubas speak)

To ò, ẹ ku isẹ o", (translation Alright. Weldone)

""Ẹ ku ijoko, se o binu pupọ?" (translation.i hope you are not annoyed for keeping you sitting all this while?)

 ""rara o". (translation no, not at all)

""ỌGA", (translation Master) 

""Eleyi ko" bad "o"", (translation This is not bad or this is good)

""Ẹyin lẹ mọ̀, se bi ẹ ti yà á tan"". (translation That is left to you. Have you finished taken the picture?)

"sebi a ti yà á tan", (translation have we finished taken the picture)

""Mo mọ tọga bẹ́ẹ̀", (translation I have known our master for this)

"nã ni" (translation I think is what he would only say)

"ẹyin ọmọ yi"", (translation You these children)

"ná ọga", (translation in a way master)

""O dara nã", it is fine. "Kilẹ fẹ Gbà nidi ọrọ yi?" (translation okay now, it is fine. What do you want to be given for all these?)

 ""Oluwa seun". (translation Bless the Lord or Lord be blessed)

"ọga" (translation master)

"awọn ọmọ yi ko ni jẹ ka gbadun ọrọ wa nibiyi o"" (translation These children (or my members of staff) would be disturbing or interrupting our discussions here oh)

"ọga" (translation Master)

"mo wi ire tabi ngo wi ire"?" (translation Have I spoken well or not?)

"O wi ire". (translation You have spoken well)

"Ọga", (translation Master)

""oun na ti ngbọ bayẹn", pls let us go jare"", (translation she is hearing what you are saying, don’t mind them, please let us go)

""A kì í dupẹ ara ẹni", (translation You are welcome)

"face me I slap you" (translation this is a room by room apartment in the nation where a room will face another room, it is not a self-contain room, but rooms in a row without partition but separated by passage where those inhabiting the rooms will have access to the same toilet, bathrooms and toilets. Just like an office that face another office, that is some buildings are in the country

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To the guy i can’t have (haba sya masyado pero *toot* pls take time to read it. Important kasi every datail. Sorry and thanks)

Im laying here at the one side of my bed kung san ka nag sleep hehe (WAG OA HANGGANG DUN LANG YUN ULOL WAG GREEN MINDED) so hi *toot* i want you to know that grabe ko ka happy na nakilala kita. Grabe mo ka neutral and chill na person. Kaw yung guy na pwede ma chat anytime kahit midnight pa yan kung gusto ko mag yosi and comfy ako sayo and pwede mo ma talk about everything including ang mga stuffs that really matters like family which is grabe ka big deal nun sakin and naka hanap ako ng person na interested sa background ko and yang ma understand ako atleast kahit sometimes ma relieve ako by just expressing it and ikaw yung nanjan for me *toot*. I like it when ga share ka kung gano mo ka love mom mo. Palagi mo sya gna share sakin. Pati mga songs ng mama mo which is grabe ka cute kasi mama’s boy ka hahahha. Gna share mo din mga bonding nyo with your little brothers na binilhan mo sila ng PS3 para maka bond and maka relate ka sakanila at ikaw pa nag adjust ka lovely na kuya oy and own money pa talaga cutieee hahahhaha. then yung nawala mo yung earphones ng  isa mong brother and binilhan mo using your allowance and that’s why wala ka money ngayon hahahahaha. 

So yung nag shot tayo nag talk tayo ng mga stuffs and mas nakilala kita dun. And unfortunately, na hubog ako ahahahha. Ikaw nag tanggal ng shoes ko and gi help mo ako suka and gi semi buhat mo ako papunta kwarto hahahahaha ew ka wasted ko, gi bigyan mo ako juice kasi walang water naka lagay sa ref yawa ka HAHAHAHAHAHA. And isa pa nag maoy ako hindi because of my ex’s kay because of my family. wow dba? hahaha ewan ko din di ko gna expect na mag maoy ako bigla lang lumabas sakin di ko naman iniisip fam ko that time. baka sabihin nyo na pabebe ako or what nagulat nalang ako pagka tomorrow kay bakit ako nag maoy hahaha then di gud ako ganyan. first time ko gud mag maoy in my existence AHAHA then ikaw pa talaga naka witness nun kahiya lang. Nakita mo ako nag iyak yung iyak jud na murag bata na gi iwan sa mall HAHAHA. luoyaa nako uy. gi take care mo ako. sge mo ako hug para ma lessen and pagka maya kay nag stop na ako cry kasi gna commfort mo ako hahaha. Na appreciate ko yun *toot*. Walang guy guro mag gawa nun kay for sure iwanan lang guro ako kay mura kog gago HAHA. Little things lang sya pero naka feel ako ng love kahit sa isang night lang. Na prove ko na hindi lahat ng guys assholes. And ikaw yun *toot*

So yah dto ka nag sleep which is first time koo mag pa sleep ng guy sa bahay. haha. So yun nag stay ka kasi na luoy ka sakin na nag maoy ako and di ko din ma imagine self ko mag maoy with myself lang. mabuang guro ko hahahaahhaa. (Opps alam ko ano gna isip mo yawa ka hahahaahaha wala oy nag sleep lang kami dalawa po) Buti nalang nanjan ka if other guy guro yun na rape na ako or what, gi respect mo ako, gi take care mo ako. and na feel ko na love mo din ako. It’s just a night pero na happy ako and maraming memories na nanyare and I treasure ko yun. Daming first’s nanyare sakin and ikaw yung naka witness nun. First time ko mag share ng ganun ka deep about sa life ko, first time ko mag drink one on one with a guy, first time ko mag pa sleep ng guy dto bahay and last is first time ko mag maoy HAHAHAH. Shit kahiya. Pagka tomorrow happy and inlove na kaayo each other like ga exchange na tayo ng i love you’s. But then….

Pagka morning umalis ka na and naka sleep tayo sa houses natin. Pagka gising ko, I cried kasi baka for one night mo lang ako na person. Di ako mapakali kasi alam ko di ka katulad ng other guys and di mo yun magawa sakin. Di ako nag sleep ulit kahit grabe ko ka antok then gna wait ko reply mo. So yun, pagka maya2 nag reply ka na din and sweet pa rin tayo. Wew na relief gud ako dun kasi akala ko I one night person mo lang ako pero hindi hehe. Pagka lunch nag kita tayo ulit and we’re not drunk anymore. Then nakita ko difference kung ano ka hubog  and sa hindi, ganun din ako. And we talked. And sadly you said “hindi mo ma love ang isang person sa isang night lang” “for long term ako and hindi ako ga uyab for the sake na may uyab lang” Ga I love you ako sayo pero hindi mo ako gna answer ng I love you too “grabe kasi ka precious yan na words ramz” hayyyyys. And another thing is may both problems tayo na ga conflict which it would be better kung di ko I mention dito. Hays.:((((((((((

So yun days after ga kita pa rin tayo. And sometimes midnight para mag yosi. Same pa rin gna hug and kiss mo pa rin ako na parang girlfriend mo kahit hindi. Ma feel ko pa rin na love mo ako kahit di mo gna sabi sguro kasi nahihirapan ka din. Ang pinagkaiba lang is di mo gna answer ang I love you ko. “Di mo ako love ramz. Di pa ako ready mag commit” “Isure muna natin feelings natin”

So it’s my 3rd day gna pag isipan ano ilagay dto sa blog na to. Effort no? haha wala akong balak sabihin sayo na gumawa ako ng blog for you. Alam ko mababasa mo din ito kasi stalker ka hehe. Kanina nag away tayo kasi gusto kita kasama tomorrow pero sabi mo hindi mo sure kasi mag enroll ka tom and sige pa rin ako pilit and nag tampo ako sayo and gna ask mo bakit ako sad “tomorrow ko na I explain sayo kasi alam ko sleepy ka na” and you said “okay fiiinnnee goodnight” So if ever di ko sya ma explain ng maayos, here’s my reason:

Hi ulit haha. Hm takot man gud ako na baka may changes pag balik ko dito. At the sane time good din. Good time think kung ano ba talaga. Syempre di pa ganun tayo tagal nag sama so baka ma awkward tayo next kita natin. Which is ayaw ko gud. Di pa rin nawawala yung point na gusto kitang maging close, alam ko yun din yun yung gusto mo. And gusto ko din I explain sayo ano plans ko if ever. Maybe it would change your mind. L(((((((((((((((((((( hayyyysssss. And another thing, like sure ka  na 100% na walang mag change? Di baya yan ganyan ka easy. Sabi ko “takot ako na may changes” then you said “oo sguro may mag change,  yung kisses and hugs pero ako hindi”. Alam mo yung main point ko dto sa reasons ko is gusto kita makasama sa last days ko dto kasi kahit sa last days na yun ma feel ko love mo. Ma feel ko kisses and hugs mo. Grabe kasi ka important yun for me kahit bago lang tayo nagkakilala. I hope u feel the same thing too. L Like for last 2 weeks uyab tayo kahit hindi. Napa happy mo kasi ako masyado kahit 2 weeks lang yun idk first time to. Sorry. What if matauhan ako sa cot na hindi pala kita gusto? Na infatuation lang ang lahat? What if mag stop na tayo usap sa chat and ma hurt ako kahit alam ko na wala gud ako karapatan. We both ayaw natin mawala each other. Kahit  ganito gusto mo pa rin ako maging close. Pero isipin mo, pag balik ko, hindi gud ikaw lang yung friend ko, hindi gud ako lang yung friend mo. Hindi dapat always tayo ga chat. Idk if na annoy na kita kasi at the first place di dapat tayo ga chat palagi diba? Because im just your friend. Di natin alam anong manyare after *toot*. Nag sorry ako sayo after nung long message ko and ako nag pakumbaba kasi na realize ko at the first place di mo ako uyab and wala ako right pilitin ka sa kahit ano L(((((

“You gave me forever within number of limited days, and I’m grateful for that”. 2 weeks lang yun pero napa happy mo ako. You deserve someone na mag fit sayo. Na happy person din like you. “Ako kasi yung person na martyr na kaya ko mag give up ng kahit ano kaya ayaw ko mag take ng risk”. Hindi ka gud dapat ganito. You deserve a relationship na fair. Ayaw ko na ganyan kaaa ma sad aakooo. Isa sa nagustuhan ko sayo is hindi ka asshole, pwede ako maging comfy and you respect girls. Which is isa sa hinahanap ko sa isang guy. And kahit may problem tayo gusto mo pa rin ako I friend and maging close and lagi mo gna sabi na ayaw mo ako mawala sa life mo. And Im grateful narinig ko yun sayo despite of the problem we have. Maybe because sa past relationships ko na realize ko na walang perfect na relationship pero dapat humanap ka ng worth it. Ikaw kasi yung guy na okay lang I take yung risk kahit gano pa yan kabigat, kasi alam mo in the end worth it lahat yun ang di ka mag regret. So like hirap man gud mag hanap ng guy na ganyan, diba if may opportunity diba dapat I grab mo yun? Like you gusto kitang I grab but may problem lang naga contradict satin. :((((. Ako din kasi yung person na ayaw ko na gud mag take ng risk. Like ayaw ko na mahurt. Sa dami ba namang problems na meron ako, ayaw ko na ma depress ulit. Gusto ko if kami ng makatuluyan ko, kami jud in the end. After ng summer, di ko din alam anong manyayare. Basta ang alam ko, ayaw kitaa mawala. Kahit as your friend nalang. Gusto kita ma close pa. Hirap kasi mag hanap ng person like you. Kahit masakit okay lang kasi mas masakit kasi  yung totally na mawala ka. Sana ganun ka rin sakin. L(((( idk im crying while gna type ko to. RIP laptop hahha. Sorry if mahaba and ma effort ako like atleast using this blog ma explain ko sayo lahat what I felt sa last days natin and kung gano kita ka love. You deserve someone na I love ka masyado like kung pano ka mag give ng love. Di porket guy ka, mag paka martyr ka na. Hindi gud ganyan yan. Naalala ko yung drunk tayo and gna kantahan mo ako sa sofa and sabi ko “nasa tono ka man pala pero di halata sayo hahaha”. And sinabi mo rin “Hintayin kita sa pag uwi mo ramz” “Grabe mo gud kaganda” and yung first time nilagay ko yung head ko sa shoulders mo and sabi mo na trigger ka “Ibalik mo bi, kasi gusto ko” shet gna kilig ako HAHHAHA. Gusto ko mag thank you sa lahat na yun *toot*. Like na happy ako. I felt loved. Maybe God let me feel this kasi alam nyang grabe ko  na ka sad like he gave me a break. And ikaw yung break nay un *toot*. With those little things, I treasure ko yun lahat. Alam ko maybe tawanan nalang natin to soon pero alam ko na happy ako kahit within 2 weeks lang.

So basically, ga puyat ako for this blog, sana ma appreciate mo. Di ito sya sa pagiging oa or what. Like you deserve na malaman to lahat. You deserve to know that you’re a good guy that’s why na fall ako sayo. Since nag effort ako, I think this will serve as my gift for your advance or belated happy birthday depende kung kalian mo sya ma read hahaha. Kasi naman ayaw mo itreat kati ewan ko sayo. Hahha. So yah I guess na explain ko naman din lahat. Thanks sa lahat *toot* I love you even though you can’t love me back. Ps: first time ko mag blog ng ganito kahaba wew  -ramz